rough night at work...

So I worked Monday 3pm, then Tuesday 7am, and then again Tuesday night at 11pm for 8 hour shifts each time. Obviously I was exhausted by the last shift, but it was also the most interesting. Not long after the shift started we got our first call of the night. It was a patient in cardiac arrest. We arrived at the scene and someone had already started cpr, so we set up the ekg monitor, and continued compressions and started using the bvm to breathe for the patient. We inserted an airway, used suction and everything. The cpr went on for 20 minutes, and we could not get the patient to a shockable heart rhythm. We tried our best, but after 20 minutes the other intensive care ambulance that has a doctor on it came, and declared the time of death, and took the guys id card. We had to come out and talk to the family after, then lift the patient back into his bed and cover him until he was taken out of the home by a private ambulance. This was my first cpr ever, and although I stayed strong obviously it did shake me up a little. We found out after that when the family came home they found him curled up unconscious and thats when cpr was started and we were called...so he may have been dead for a while already considering how low his body temperature was already. This was probably the toughest call yet because of the emotional aspect of it all, but luckily I was working with one of my instructors from my course so I had someone there with me to make sure I was ok. Yes, it sucks to have to tell the family the patient is dead, but thats part of my job now...I learn more and more each shift I work. I am going to sleep now since I just got home from work, but I wanted to tell everyone about this experience...miss you and love you all!